The Heat of Summer Sunshine

May 21, 2012. My friends Camille, Jen, Rica(Ed's sister), Me, Feliz and Ed(The one who took the picture) with Solon and Cham (Who went in the afternoon), went to Blue Jaz in Samal Island. It was the late birthday celebration of Ed's 19th birthday.

This picture was taken when we were grilling bbqs and  bangus. The bbq was really delicious, btw.

This is Ed. The birthday boy. He was the only thorn among the roses. Well, until Solon caught up in the afternnoon.

Here we are, chillin' in the pooool. :)

(L-R: Jen, Feliz, Me, Camille, Ed, Ralph(solon) and Cham)

It was a really fun, fun, fun day. Even though our other friends wasn't able to make it, we still had so much fun. I seriously doubt that there wouldn't be a next time. haha! And in that next time, I hope that everyone will be there, so that it would be more fun. :)

AWESOME DAY!

xx

A Day Not In Time

It started to rain

My heart's in total pain

How can I keep myself sane

Wish I could take the fast lane.

No sight of you, so hard it is,

A part of me started to miss,

How you made smile, effortless,

I don't know if I could love you less.

To let my heart once again

To live life and face  the burdens

Please don't let it, to me, sink in

That's all the same when it comes to men.

Wish you're different, and treat me right

Would like to keep me in sight?

Please don't turn black, a day that's bright

Hurt me not and keep my heartaches light.

New Life Begins

May 11-13, 2012. I went to a YLSS (Youth Life in the Spirit Seminar). It's a seminar about receiving the Holy Spirit and its gifts. I believe that the seminar made me a better person. I became more patient and more positive in life. It made my faith in God stronger, but I know I'm still a working progress, I'm working at it every single day. The seminar gave me a new perspective, a new world to see and witnessing the reality of how the dark side will do everything to keep us away from God's arms and how God let me realize that He's the most powerful and that I shouldn't be afraid because He's with me. and for that, I'll trust in Him.

I'm so happy I attended that seminar. Wouldn't spend that weekend any better. So cheers to the new life!

Fearless~

I think I've read, watched and heard enough love experiences to have an idea what will one becomes if one falls in love. But I cannot fully understand the feeling, the rush, the adrenaline that, that person feels whenever she's with the man she loves, for I have never experienced falling in love. Yet.

Before, there are times that I would mistakenly recognize that I was in love with someone. I would be 'Kilig' whenever we're together, even though we're just friends. I'd be sad if he's sad or whenever he's not around and other things whenever you feel that you like someone. But later on, I would realize that it was just a great great crush or an infatuation. It wasn't love. I didn't even know what consists love or what love truly is.

I've grown, I think. I became a rational being. Too rational, that I don''t recognize or seek for my heart's voice. I over think things, all the time. All the time. I stop myself sometimes and just let things go. I'm supposed to follow my #2 motto: Que Sera Sera
(If not familiar, google it. hehe). But when a male species(LOL), I'll change that. If a guy that I don't know much, tends to be friendly or overly friendly  to me(not being assuming), my instinct is that, I'll put all my guards up, that instant. And the outcome would be like, I'll be super awkward and would not be able to speak properly. I'll be answering questions in one line, a word, or even just a chuckle. Then after that awkward situation, I would realize how stupid I was and now the guy might think that I'm a mean or rude and maybe would think that I don't like him. And this kind of stupidity would hunt me for a week, or more, or until I'm assured that he doesn't think of me that way. I don't know. UGH.

My friends said that they would throw me a party if I would finally have a boyfriend. I don't think that'd be soon. I don't think that I'm ready. I am a very independent person. And I don't want another person would monitor my moves or would somehow limit my freedom. I don't want to depend on someone that would have the possibility to be leaving me in the future. I don't know what made me think this way, but it's just how I am today. I'm a fan of relationships and commitment. For now, the important things for me are my relationship with God, family and my studies, my friends too. And I don't think it'll just change that easily until I see, feel and experience personally, this guy, this one guy, that would change my views about real love, that would make me believe  about falling in love, and that a lifetime commitment is real and possible, and I would be much willing to put share my self with and not fear that I'll be betrayed because I'll be assured that he'd never judge and accept me with all my weirdness, and that we could be each other's dream and we would dream together............ and that, he would make me feel fearless....

                                                         kissa 24~

Lazy Song

Today I swear I'm doing anything~ *insert whistle tone here X)

Yeh, today, I was kinda sorta lazy. I just stayed on the sofa watching movies the whole afternoon. Actually until now I'm sitting on the exact same spot. HAHA!
Kinda Sorta lazy- cos I went to school this morning, So, I wasn't that lazy. btw, I was tempted not to attend class cos I was feeling so lazy this morning but I attended anyway for the sake of having good grades. waaaa~ And then I went home at 10am and started to watch t.v and then got bored so I started watching DVDs. I watched 'The Rite' and 'Pirates of The Caribbean: On Stranger Tides' 'twas a lot of fun. I enjoyed watching these movies. I didn't even realized that it was already dark outside and I haven't turned on the lights, I was too engrossed. Lol.

Hope something awesome and interesting will happen to me the next days! :)

                                                  Ciao, Kissa~ xx

Typical Friday~

Today was plain, normal, a typical day, nothing happened special or surprising and the like. This day was actually kinda boring. I was supposed to go to McDonald's  in Abreeza to start making my term paper for Soc Sci 6, but I had to go home right away from school.  The reason why I wanna do to my term paper outside cos I can't concentrate when I make it at home. I get distracted with the t.v and our very inviting sofa and would rather watch t.v or movies the whole time than making my term paper.

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Watched a movie today(DVD) and 'Time' for my movie review. Gawd I love watching movies. hahaha. But it doesn't mean that my blog will be all about the movies that I watched. It's just that, I've been watching a lot of movies lately. ;)

IN TIME~

I watched the movie 'In Time' just 2 hrs ago. Justin Timberlake and Amanda Seyfried were the main actors. I had invited my friends to watch this movie when it got out in theaters but we didn't get the chance.

What can I say about this movie......it was 50-50 for me. I wasn't fully satisfied. It was kinda sorta lacking, for me. Though the story's very original and interesting, the events, the scenes, some of it were like the 'a-y' in 'okay'. You get me? And the sequencing was so quick that I thought that there's something missing. And the ending was...okay. The conflict was not that resolved. They became fugitives and it was hanging. Although I've encountered movies with a hanging end before but in this one, I wasn't just satisfied. I want mooooore..... maybe they'll make a sequel to it and would answer all the questions I have in my mind right now! LOL!

that's all folks!

                                                              Ciao, Kissa~ xx

Black & White

I watched Manila Kingpin at the mall just this afternoon. This is the 2nd time that I went to the theater to watch a movie alone. :) 

This movie was an official entry for Metro Manila Film Festival or MMFF. 

When I first saw the trailer of Manila Kingpin, I was surprised because it was in black and white. I thought it was a joke or a commercial or something, but then I saw the same trailer again and again and it made me very interested, and it made me want  to watch Manila Kingpin because FYI I'm very much into period, medieval, Cultural, Historical, old setting kind of movies :). And Manila Kingpin's setting is in 1940's ( not sorta sure bout this). 

The story-line was  very satisfying, even the editing of the movie and the action scenes wasn't bad either. The action scenes were believable, not cliched and were not corny. Though the movie was tend to be serious, there was a hint of comedy in some scenes. It made the movie light and more enjoyable. The cinematography was good too, it captured the scenes in the right angles and in the right time. I was also satisfied with the the actors' acting. Though I was able to predict some of the things that'll happen next, I still very much enjoyed watching it, though I was alone. HAHAHA.

It won a lot of awards in the MMFF, 11 to be exact. At first you wouldn't expect it to win anything because the other movies were waaay more famous and were able to promote a lot with their movies than Manila Kingpin did. But when you watch the movie, you'll know exactly why. I believed,  even before watching it, that it's a good quality movie, and I was so psyched when I heard that it won best picture and other awards so I didn't delay it any longer and decided to watch it whenever I got the money and the time. And that was today! :)

My 110 pesos wasn't wasted. It was worth it! :)

Ciao, kissa~xx

Agora

Just finished watching Agora. I have no specific reason why I watched this movie. I just found a bunch of DVDs by the t.v and scanned through 'em. Then this DVD came up and the summary at the back was sorta interesting for me so I decided to watch it.

At first I was like 'I hope this wouldn't bore me...please entertain me...please.' Then I found out that it was about ancient times like the A.D times, This time, it made me more interested. Then philosophy came up, I was hooked!

The movie's about the conflict between religions and beliefs. It was deeper than that actually. It was like 2 worlds were combined in the movie, religion and philosophy. A very interesting combination indeed.

Over all, it was a great great movie. One of the movies that impressed me. Like what I wrote in one of my previous post that I am a bit hard to please and to impress when it comes to movies or dramas. ;) Lol.

hmmmmm. All the chaos that occurred in the movie was....some of it were kinda gross to watch. Well, some could tolerate it but for me it's groooosssss. I don't like seeing blood and flesh and it seemed so real! And it was like I could feel their pain. Ugh! So I just covered my ears and closed my eyes when those bloody scenes appeared.

The moral that I got from the movie is Respect. Actually, respect is one of the values that I treasure the most. All we have to do and all we need is RESPECT. Even though we have different religions and beliefs and if one doesn't believe in anything, we have to respect them. Because in that way, we could attain the peace that we all need and want. Respect those people who has different opinions from yours, respect those who doesn't believe in your god. Let them be. You can't control them. All you can control is yourself, so respect.
Whow, seems like I'm preaching or something. haha. I was just carried away by the movie. :) It's a good movie. I recommend you to watch it. :)

I think there's nothing wrong having religion and philosophy together in your life. Right? Well, that's just for me. heehee.

Ciao, kissa xx

Gloomy Wednesday~

A gloomy and awesome Wednesday, 4th of January twenty twelve! :) I love this kind of weather. It makes me more hyper and more eager to do things.

I was almost late in in my first class this morning (8am). Good thing the teacher was kinda late. HOHO. After English, which is BTW my first subject, I have an hour break. It would be either I wait outside the classroom or I would go to the library. But this time I decided to stay near the cafeteria, there are benches and tables there. It's also interesting cos I get to see people passing by. Eventually, I got bored and started to draw stuff on my notebook, like I always do whenever I get bored. So, here they are....

LOL. Forgive my amateur-ish  artwork. ;) I was just this bored. Good thing I brought  a lot of my colorful pens. :)

I have PE class on Wednesdays in the afternoon. So after my typing class I go directly to Matina Campus ( The university that I'm atteding has 2 campuses in the city. I like the Matina Campus more because it's so vast and enormous and nature-ish and the fresh air blows gently upon my warm skin and my hair as I walk towards my next class. I feel like I'm in a music video. HAHAHA). But sometimes I eat my lunch first in the mall next to the school. Today, I didn't eat an actual lunch. I went to a coffee shop and had hot chocolate and a revel bar. I ate there cos I want free WiFi. LOL! So I was there for almost an hour.

In my PE class, our lecture was about badminton, and after the lecture our professor let us play badminton in the gym and my clothes wasn't 'badminton appropriate'. I wore jeans and a shirt and my glad sandals. While playing it was really slippery and all but I manage to get 10 pts out of 15. hahaha. Besides, next week's the real thing. Our final exam for PE will be playing badminton. Sorta excited. Can't wait. :)

Ciao, kissa~ xx

The Bucket List

No, I'm not talking about the movie. :) I'm talking about my bucket list. Months ago, I thought that I should make a bucket list, but too lazy to write 'em. So that I wouldn't regret the things that I should have done in life that I didn't do. So I tried to remember all of it which was not the right thing to do, cos my memory fails me every time. I forget things easily, so some of the things that I should have remembered in the list were gone. Then I watched this Korean drama "Scent of a Woman", the girl there is dying of cancer and she made her bucket list and promised to complete 'em before she dies. It was truly a very inspiring drama. So I decided to finally write my own bucket list. I finally wrote 'em and completed 2 already. I got 28 more to go. :)

ciao, kissa~ xx

Went Astray~

The term's almost over. Final exam's fast approaching. My new University made my life as if it's on a fast-forward mode, exam's almost every 2-3 weeks. Ironically, it's less stressful than my previous University. And I'm so glad that I'm where I'm meant to be. God really works on mysterious ways and is such a pro on making blessings in disguise. I admit that, before, I wanna do things my own way without asking for His guidance or asking for His help. But when He made me realize that I couldn't do anything without Him and my future isn't certain and will not be according to my will, it changed me. Now, I leave everything into His hands, and whatever He does to me and to my life, I'll accept it positively and would just think that something awesome would happen after the storm. 

There's a rainbow always after the rain :)

Ciao, kissa~ xx

Brain Work Out~

So...back to school tomorrow. Mixed thoughts over here! I want classes to start already so that I could go out of the house, have my allowance and see other people besides my family and I want new lessons! I wanna learn! my brain craves for new knowledge and I want to do something other than watching t.v and laptop-ing all day and store more fats in my body. I DON'T WANT THAT. So I wanna go back to school. BUT, other part of me wants to feel the new year more with stress free days without assignments to worry about. Another BUT, on the other hand, watching t.v all day and laptop-ing all day and eating without burning calories are more stressful than assignments! Okay scratch the 2nd part and the mixed thoughts part. My mind's decided. I wanna go back to school. And that'll be tomorrow. Good Luck.

Ciao, Kissa~ xx

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

yes, 3 days late, but it's better late that never, right?. :)
Now, I don't care if I make new year resolutions and all cos I know that I wouldn't be able to follow those. I'll just follow my top 2 motto in life:

1.) Best Embrace The Suck
                    &
2.) Que Sera Sera or What ever will be, will be.

seem legit, right?
Tired of planning ahead and would just get disappointed later on. That is why, I'll just cross the freakin' bridge when I get there.

you wonderin' why am I like this?
I'm not like this at all like 6 or 7 months ago. I experienced something that I thought the worst problem I had so far. But got over it later on and made me this way. Besides, GRADES doesn't define a student's achievement right? RIGHT! :D

ciao, kissa~

Pride and Prejudice

I recommend reading Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice :)

My ever fave female author is Jane Austen, and my all time fave book is her Pride and Prejudice. A book that was written simply but its witty descriptions of the events and Ms. Jane's composition of the characters and their personalities made the novel beyond awesome and colorful and interesting but still making the events realistic.
Not everyone appreciates this book. Some says it's boring. Difficult may the vocabularies be that Ms. Jane used in her novels but it's definitely not boring.
This novel isn't only about love. It's also about the society and family and their culture in the 1800's. That's why I'm in love with Jane Austen's books, cos it makes me travel through time and makes me feel like I'm living with the characters.
But of course, what would a girl like me want in a novel? (except for Elizabeth's strong will to follow what she wants, that she defied the dictations of the society for her.) is the love story. :)
Mr. Darcy & Elizabeth's love story is one of the best. NO ONE ever thought that they would end up together. They hated each other, at least Lizzy did. ;) I love how Jane Austen brought them together. I LOOOOOVE IT! I won't spill the deits for those who haven't read this yet.

Movie:
<-----THIS PART RIGHT HERE!

My heart felt like it stopped and beat faster at the same time. You'll know what I mean if you watch the movie(2005). :) I want a guy to confess to me just like this! Yeh, in my dreams. LOL.

"The Dance"
Love the music, Love the camera movement, Love the emotion. :)

That would be all. I wish there's at least one out here that felt the same way as me when I read the book and when I watch the movie.

Ciao, theblackkissa

City Hunter

I'm currently watching this korean drama 'City Hunter' on youtube. I've heard it before, like months ago even before it was first aired in Korea but I didn't lure me enough to watch it, though I love Lee Min Ho so much. But lately, teasers were shown constantly on abs-cbn(a channel in the Philippines) and says that the drama would air on the latter this January. So I was like, this drama must be good. So I tried youtube. The episodes were complete already so I started watching it. I wasn't expecting much then but later in episode 1, I admitted to myself the it was really good. I'm not that easy to please when it comes to movies or dramas, cos I want to watch movies and dramas that as if they're real and all, cos watching movies or dramas that you know is fake or the actors acting lame is just beyond boring. It's just not like any other action dramas where the effects and action scenes looked fake. It was believable, and engrossing enough to hook me up and continue watching it. the drama gets better each episode, I'm in episode 6 now. The characters are so different from each other but somehow drawn together with each other. I don't know yet why is it like that, haha, but I'll definitely know through the next episodes.

My Diary's Full

              Yes, you read it right. I had a diary and it's already full. So I decided to make a blog. I googled blog sites this morning and found this site. I hope that the people who went astray and found my blog(haha) would enjoy reading as much as I enjoy writing 'em.

Ciao! blackkissa~